heart of death

a lot of people who inspires me seem to be dead

i wish i could meet them for a day, without being scared of dead people, and afterlife, and being haunted, or followed by something i cannot see. im scared just typing this now, but it is all a thought.

i would love to hang out with carol jerrems for a day, and have her take my picture


i would love to meet my grandma, i miss her so much, but i have not met her before; she would have been just like my mum, kind heart , patience, and full of love. we need more people like this in the world. i am so lucky to have my mum, and my dad. i worry all the time that suddenly they will die and i will be left with nobody that i know will love me forever and i will miss them so much, just thinking about it makes my heart hurt so much. i love my mum and dad more then anything else that could possibly exsit, and i love andy too forever and ever